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Black Pariah _chapter three_

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Gerard stirred restlessly in his sleep, uncomfortably searching the old junkyard couch for a soft place to rest his head. The old emotions rose up, just to drag him down again.

Lindsay lay listless in a hospital bed, a waxy pale grey tinge to her skin. Her voice was barely above a whisper when she used the last of her waning strength to reach up a trembling hand, a hand that seemed almost thinner that the cannula drip that was inserted and taped to it,in a futile attempt to ease her suffering.

He leaned further forward, so she could stroke his hair and struggle to tell him how much she loved him before another hacking coughing fit sent her frail frame into spasms, making him scream for the nurses again.

The coffin was being lowered under the innocuous sunshine that filtered through the green canopy of leaves that would shelter and protect his Lindsay. It would show the world that he couldn't,  the scope of his failure. He stood by on shaking legs, hugging his Bandit too tightly into his neck,crying on his brother as Frankie's arms  held him upright, yet again

Him kneeling in front of  a serious eyed Bandit ,so like her mothers those eyes ,standing still in her school uniform ,struggling to explain why she had to leave her school ,the sunshine ,her custom designed bedroom with all the drawings they spent so many happy hours colouring in with bright markers.

He recalled the smell of sunshine and the varnish he used to seal their artwork into the walls, tattooing the fabric of their home with happiness.

He walked into his mother's house back in Jersey, like he'd never been away, what was the point? Why bother with any of it? Why did he even try?

It felt pointless, it felt as though all for nothing, just to end up here again. Pointless.

The feeling of Bandit gripping his hand so tightly, scared by the small dark stuffiness that was so different from the open, bright airiness that she had been the only thing she had ever known. With the tiny shivering grip in his, he knew why.

He knew exactly why.
Again please understand ,this is a work of fiction ,none of this is real. I have no ownership over names etc, am not affiliated with gerard way or anyone else etc etc

Thank you for reading :D it feels amazing to know that out there someone is reading ,so thanks :D

Huge thanx and gratitude as always to my beta :icondyelirious:

Chapter One [link]
Chapter Two [link]
Chapter Four [link]
Chapter Five [link]
Chapter Six [link]
Chapter Seven [link]
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SerenitySpiral's avatar
aww poor Lindsey, made me cry. still good, keep going!